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I am going to give this blogging thing a try......

I have been abused, beaten, raped, neglected, tortured and hurt but not broken. That is not who I am though. I will not let that define who I am. I may come across as sappy and nice, too nice to some. That is ok by me. That is who I choose to be. I have the dark dark cloud deep inside me, and I choose everyday not to let it out, but fight it with sunshine. How do you feel after 5 days of dark clouds, and no sun! Pretty damn grouchy! And the sun comes out, bammo wammo the world is right again! Seeing others laugh and smile is what makes me happy.

I will admit, the sarcasm is lost on me. I don't know maybe it was one of the things beaten out of me. I want to be the person people feel comfortable being around, not the one people are scare of because a wet blanket was just thrown over them. I am grateful to be alive, and I want to spread that around. Every single person needs to see the good, even if it is a tiny little ray of sunshine, let it in! Life is way to short to be dwelling on the past! The past is done, not a damn thing you can do to change it. Today is the gift, unwrap it and enjoy!!!!!

I sometimes feel like an old twangy country song, but that ok! It is just time for me to get away, unplug and set my world right again. That is what a vacation is for, so off to enjoy my vacation!!

well more sap, but i did try, and it kinda felt good, might just do it again one day!
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Giving Thanks

Posted 10-08-2018 at 12:38 PM by Atrebla Rose
Giving Thanks

What I have to be thankful for;

Many experiences good and bad I have had in my life. I take each and every one and know they had to happen. I grew from each of them. I believe people come into our lives for a reason. To teach us something. Sometimes, that something is painful, and the lesson is one which leaves us not understanding why life has to be cruel. Leaves us shaking and raw. As we grasp the lesson and our mind works through it, the reason usually comes forth. I have always tried to grow from every experience.

Growing, I have grown and as I grow older still, the biggest lesson I have learned is to let go. I have let go of so much. Many things I held onto and worried and stewed about, gone. I felt a sense of peace finally with the letting go. Worrying is no longer a priority for me. Living is.

I am thankful for all that I have become. And for the desire to love the person I am. I haven't always loved me. But to open up and love others I had to love me first. I am ashamed to admit, I bought into society's perception of what the perfect woman is. I strived, to be the wonder woman, perfect mother, perfect wife, perfection. That is one of life's biggest lies. It is not how the world see you, but what you see yourself as, and accepting that person and loving them unconditionally. I am very thankful that I broke through the lies and found myself before it was too late. I am thankful for my heath, and my happiness. I am thankful that I have had a career in which I could help people. Helping people and making people smile is one of the gifts I can give to this world. There are many people who don't want to accept those gifts, and I am ok with it. I can smile and walk away. I know one day they will. And I will be ready to offer that smile, hug or helping hand.

I am thankful for my health, that I live is one of the greatest countries in the world. I am thankful for all my freedoms. As a woman, those freedoms are most precious, not to be taken for granted. I have the choice to be me, express me in any way I chose. I thank the men and women around the world who have fought and died for my freedoms. I do not take these freedoms for granted or lightly.

I am thankful for my amazing family. We are a huge bunch of nuts, and can be overly frustrating at times, but when the times get tough, there is no better family than mine! I accept them wort's and all! And the best part, they accept me, as I am!

I am thankful for the privilege of being a mother. I know I was never a perfect mother. But I did the best that I could with what I knew! There were some very dark times as a mom, and many many more amazing times. In the end, my kids came back to me as adults, with the lessons I taught them and I am ONE PROUD MOMMA!!!!

I am thankful for the many many friends I have had over the years, both in RL and here. Each one of you and them is cherished and respected. You came into my life when I needed you the most, some have left physically but never mentally. I still hold your memory in my heart! I am thankful for this amazingly big heart I have, it is so filled with love to both give and receive.

I am thankful for Faith in my life. Faith in something I can not touch, but I can believe. I have relied on faith many many times over my lifetime. When I believed I was alone and no where to go or no one to lean on, Faith was there.

I am thankful for my sunny positive attitude, and that I can over come my shyness to share this with others.

I am thankful for my talents, although they are few, the ones I have I have mastered!

I am thankful for each and every day I wake up alive and ready to experience all there is to experience.

I am thankful that I have learned to love unconditionally and without judgement.

I am thankful I had the opportunity to love and be loved, even if some were lost. It is always better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.

I am one thankful and blessed woman!
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ByronBay's Avatar
What a lovely positive blog. Glad you're in a good place to in your life with a great attitude
Posted 10-09-2018 at 03:52 PM by ByronBay ByronBay is offline
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LadyZ's Avatar
Absolutely perfectly Atrebla Rose You're a brilliant friend & I'm thankful for you!
Posted 10-13-2018 at 01:04 PM by LadyZ LadyZ is offline
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louisa69's Avatar
Thank you for sharing, Rose !
Posted 10-21-2018 at 02:10 AM by louisa69 louisa69 is offline
 
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