I was then put on a nerve blocking medication that immediately caused me to become extremely hostile, aggressive, uncontrollable, severely depressed and suicidal. I put 'my love through it all over again. This time though hen I contacted him to let him know I was OK, i was met with silence. I tried evrything to get him to speak with me, left emails in all his accounts, a skype voice mail and copious yahoo messages begging him to forgive me.

I'd done it this time. I'd killed what...