I still cant say it.....i still cant believe this has happened. I actually had to say, " yes i am a widow" today. I started shaking and crying and couldnt stop. I hated this man for the last 8-9 years and then this happens and all i can think about is how am i ever going to live without him.
How does one learn to live without the person they had been with for 27 years? and how does one go about getting over the guilt of all the times you had HORRIBLE thoughts about this person?...